Progression.

Tell you what the best thing about getting hurt is? The progression. Obviously, once you're at your lowest point, it couldn't possibly get any lower, so you begin to progress and things start to get easier.

I'm proud to say that I'm starting to feel so much happier these days. I'm starting to find myself, love myself and find happiness in my own company. I'm not relying on others to keep me happy anymore and I can't express how proud of myself I am.

My aim for this year is to continue this mind set, to focus on things like University, my friends and of course, myself. Yes, the idea of Uni scares me slightly, but it's also quite exciting to be able to fully leave the past in the past and know that there's a whole new beginning ahead, a new start, to be the person I want to be, someone I can be proud of.

No more reckless decisions, no more getting involved with people who treat me like dirt, taking care of myself is my number one priority. It's time to put my foot down and be that independent, brown girl (I'm Indian btw :P ) that I've always wanted to be. And I can't wait. I want people to look at me and think, 'Wow, I wish I had her strength'. I want to look at myself and think 'Yep, I got this'. I want to look at the people who hurt me and feel nothing, no anger, no love, just nothing. I want to be able to see them and think to myself 'They're so irrelevant now.' and keep these people in my past, no letting them creep back in.

Getting hurt, losing someone, leaving someone, it all sucks for a period time. I felt like my healing process was honestly going nowhere. But eventually, you become sick of that continuous feeling of nothingness and you realise that the only way to get where you want to be is to put your foot down and see that the only person holding you back is the person that's looking at you in the mirror.

So in summary, I'm so fkn excited to feel happy again.

Kept Girl.